Blurbs From Eunee's Mind (and Life)

I don't know why I wrote this but never published it. Must have forgotten. This was written in January but I'm just publishing it now. Oops! ----------------------------------------------------- It has been a busy seven months since I last posted on Father's Day. So much has happened and it has been quite an emotional journey. The absence of my father makes holidays more difficult. Celebrations are always laced with some sadness as we think those words "If only dad were here...." And I've discovered I can no longer watch my wedding video as seeing my father walk down the aisle with me makes me cry. But aside from that and the fact that there is a large hole in my life, the pain of it is not as sharp as it used to be. I can sing again and I can talk about my father without tearing up as much. And although there are times when I break down just from a smell, a memory, or a dream about him, life somehow goes on and I hold on to the hope that it can ...

I just remembered I have a blog and a post is long overdue! Ha ha ha. Where has the time gone? My last post was a few days after I got married and already the holidays have come and gone; we're well into the new year; and by golly even the lunar new year has come and gone!! Whew! Welcome to the year of dragon!! :D I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday season! Despite both hubby and I taking turns getting sick, we had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas with his family, a quiet New Year's Eve on our own, and a Lunar (Chinese) New Year meal with my parents out in California. And in between I have been trying to organize (as we moved right before the wedding), write my dissertation, write thank-you cards (sooooo late with all that), and just enjoy being married. And before long, we have been married almost 3 months! Boy time flies! Sometimes the wedding seems almost a dream. Planning a wedding made things so hectic and anxiety-provoking, on top of everything else that I...

I meant to do a separate Christmas and New Year blog, but I'm going to combine them considering Christmas seems long gone and 2009 has just begun. I'll divvy up this blog into two parts: old and new. Old = Christmas 2008, and new = 2009/New Years). The beautiful Christmas tree picture here was my favorite Christmas tree this year because it was decorated by someone very special to me. (I hope you don't mind that I used it on my blog, sweets. Hee hee.) :^] OLD Christmas 2008 was spent traveling after being sick on Christmas Eve - not the most fun way to spend the holidays. And I am convinced that Christmas 2009 will be spent with the company of loved ones (or at least a loved one) because I don't want to spend it on my sofa in New York, curled up with a blanket and sick. But then again, it gave me time to think about what the year has been like for me. I have had a whirlwind of a 2008 with plenty of ups and many more downs. Still, I have life and I have love; and albeit...

Can you believe that it is already the first day of 2008? In some places in the world the new year is already a day or two old. The new year has come here in Southern California, and with it the advent of new things - I hope. I look forward to the new year, with new vision and with new hope. And of course, I hope to sail upon new shores and ask that my journeys bring me to new horizons. This world is so big, yet so small in some ways due to the advent of technology. Still, there is so much yet to be experienced - and I cannot wait. With the new, sometimes I think that I am quick to forget the old. But the old is also worth keeping and bringing along even in the new year. I think we're all like that in some ways. We look forward to new technology - bigger, better, faster, flashier. It's like a race to that one shiny bauble that will make our lives better. I hope that's really not the case and that the material is really just a side to the things that truly make our lives bet...